Back now a couple of days from the cape, in the hhh...hazy hot humid....city air...artificial ice of the AC, when it works, suffocating sticky heat when the power goes off at three this morning. Spent the whole day yesterday working on the lab image, running into problems with Quark, when there was "no support for Classic" because in building the image, we had neglected to install 9.2.2. Finally figured it out, dragged the system folder over from another machine, thanks Adam, and we are really close to starting to move it around.
rough night, little sleep, much angst, this all aloneness, this no where to turn at 3:49 am, but Pema. Thank goodness for Pema. In The Places That Scare You, she quotes Einstein and others, but the line that brought me back, finally was from Dzigar Kongtrul Rinpoche. "...when we look to see that yesterday was yesterday and now it is gone. today is today and now it is new. It is like that-every hour, every minute is changing. If we stop observing change, then we stop seeing everything as new."
Somehow that calmed me and gave me hope. How big a task it is to stay in what is now. How thrilling if in fact we could see everything as new. How terrifying.
Posted by grabiner at July 9, 2003 08:52 AM